Ramblings of some guy

Sometimes in life you meet someone awesome, someone that you have such a great connection with that all you seem to do is think about them, and being with them makes you smile a stupid grin. Unfortunately, sometimes this awesome person is someone that everyone around you doesn’t want you to spend much time with for whatever reason; sometimes these reasons are perfectly acceptable, and in my case, three or so years ago, they were.

I’m not going to go into the details of why we probably shouldn’t have been spending the time together that we did; but those reasons no longer exist. The fact they no longer exist doesn’t help completely, even years later I still feel that people won’t be able to completely accept the fact that we are together, and I’m worried that my family may show some hostility when we let people know of our plans and the current status of our relationship.

Although our relationship started 3 1/2 years ago (behind closed doors) and we are still ridiculously close today, we spent a long time not communicating due to things that were both said and not said by both of us on a subject which I have only fully disclosed to a few people even though it is something that has been on my mind for years and is a very touchy subject that I get emotional about nearly every time I discuss it.

Only recently have we been in a situation where we can actually have a proper relationship, as such we have finally been able to seriously discuss a future between us. It’s been quite interesting and emotional having these discussions, it’s amazing how close we are despite of all we’ve been through and all the obstacles we’ve had to contend with throughout our relationship. It also amazes me how well she understands me, how much she makes me laugh and smile, how she has no issues opening up her deepest darkest secrets to me and also accepting me for who I truly am.

She’s the greatest person I’ve ever known, the greatest love of my life, and if I believed in that sort of crap I would describe her as a soul mate. The connection we share is something I have never experienced to this level before, we get each other at the core and it is an amazing feeling to have. I truly do intend to spend the rest of my life with her, start a family with her and die old with her.